June 28th, 2008 Haxwell
It occurred to me again to day that I don’t use this blog near enough. I should write more, use my soapbox more. Because people are listening. People are watching. I pay the bill every couple of months, and have now for years, so somebody must be using all that bandwidth up.
But today I was shown a man’s heart. Mens hearts. by that I mean what they believe, think, say, know, and understand. Out of the heart’s abundance the mouth speaks. And what was said made me write. The Universe is funny. Experience is a teacher. And in my experience, people talk a lot. Not necessarily to you, but at you, around you. The more they talk, the more you know, and I guess thats why they don’t like me much. They seem not to. Because I don’t talk just for the sake of talking. I listen. I watch, I observe. So when I do speak, its because I have something to say. So people pay attention. They just do. I’m only bein’ real.
Anyway, I know the world are watching, and for whatever bullshit they have to say thanks to their uninformed opinions, know that I have asked for their eyes, and now I have them. (A thousand dollars for that one.) I have asked for Truth, and it comes to me, constantly. They say be careful what you ask for.. because you just may get it. So, its good to know; I’m glad y’all are here. I’ll write more so you can see. See what I say.
And if you meet me, holla at me. Its all peace. Truthfully. I share with anyone who asks.. usually. No one has to hate. Participate. ‘Cause Lord knows I hate a hater.
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May 24th, 2008 Haxwell
Okay. I found this video on YouTube. I’ve decided this may be one of the shortest projects I’ve ever started. After watching that video, I’ve decided to depend upon another law I’ve learned along the way.
And thats to pay people to do what they are good at.
Aint no way I’m takin’ the time to do all that for some shirts. But someone in this fine city will. I just gotta find ‘em.
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May 24th, 2008 Haxwell
So, I have the feeling I need to write again. Its my release, I always come back to it. And I figure I need to put what I’m going through on a daily basis out there to a greater degree just for the fact that its out there, and somebody saw it, and if it was bullshit, and they know it, then I have to live with that and if for no other reason, that should be motivation to at least have a good reason. So. Bunch of shit happened recently. Times are crazy right now. Lots of shit happenin’ to those lookin. Lots happenin.
But I decided to write because I’ve got a new project. Maybe I’ll create another blog for it. But I’m going to detail how I go about learning to print my own t-shirt. Because I want to get my message out that way. Because I need clothes, and why not wear my own shit? Jay-Z did it. Fuck it, J-E can too. So I have these two designs in mind, one for the drum circle with the words Hoy Tocamos Tambores. and this design about the bottom. The other is this series of pictures and articles from back in the days of slavery. The name of the company is Wake Up My People. The shirts are to raise awareness that people are being divided unnecessarily. They truly have our minds twisted, and its time people Wake Up and realize it. They are fucking with our lives, our children’s lives, they have sold us a bill of goods. More importantly, it does not have to be that way. It absolutely does not. Wake Up My People!
I searched Google for how to make my own t-shirts and custom t-shirts. Both brought up these companies where you could do simple shit online, but I want my guide to be step-by-step how you create anything and print it on a t-shirt. I don’t know how you do that but the Wake Up My People T-Shirt Project begins tonight. The goal is to be the number one result on either or both of those Google queries.
Next, I’ll go to this t-shirt shop I found on Yelp, and maybe another I’ve seen around, and find out how to create what I’m envisioning. Stay tuned.
I’m going to start writing here more. Use my gift. Use my tools. Do what I’m good at.
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July 24th, 2007 Haxwell
I just found my first link on StumbleUpon that I had to say, “ahhh, you know what, that really doesn’t do it for me. Thumbs down(!).”
And I never mark stuff thumbs down. I mean at most, I just don’t mark it thumbs up. But somehow I thought this moment worthy of a post.
Here’s the link.. http://www.alessonislearned.com/archive.php
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July 21st, 2007 Haxwell
The best beats in hip-hop, to me, are the ones where the lyricist is saying something intelligent, and he says it in such a way that is so in tune with the rhythm that his lyrics become the showcase for the beat. The lyrics become the tracks that the rhythm plays on instead of the other way around.
The song that made this thought occur to me is J-Live’s - I’m Not Satisfied.
I couldn’t find a good Google link for it. Sorry.
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July 20th, 2007 Haxwell
Its been a while since I wrote. Again. 
Anyway, I saw this on the Wikipedia page for one of my all time favorite radio programs, WeFunk.. The show has been going on for 10 years now, its a major college radio program in Montreal, Canada.. You should listen. They have their shows available for you to listen to, all the way back to 1990-somethin’.. Years of shows.. Anyway, in talking about the playlists of the shows, the Wikipedia entry (which I did not write!) says:
Prior to 2002, the shows hosts were not always diligent with the note keeping process. This led to a good number of shows in the archive for which either a limited playlist or no playlist was available. Johnathan James started the WeFunk Playlist Project, which sifted through the unnotated shows to identify many of songs featured. While some songs have not been identified, this is now rare; All shows available have a playlist, and very few of those feature the odd unknown song.
If you didn’t already know, I started and have kept paying the hosting bills for the WeFunk Playlist Project. Its still going.. Go look.. I handled emails from music lovers all over the world, helping me identify songs for WeFunk’s playlists. The thought just occurred to me one day while I was at work, that I could probably do that, because I knew a lot of the songs they played. And since no man is an island, I’m sure other folks out there knew the songs I didn’t. We needed playlists for these songs, and just somebody to bring it all together and make it happen. So I started the project, and ran it in my spare time for a couple years. As far as contributions of the greatest impact to the world, I would have to put the WFPP up there in my life (not quite sure if thats good or bad yet). Not that it wouldn’t have happened otherwise, but my effort, my inspiration, motivation, whatever, is what actually got it there. An idea I had and worked on and created has helped a lot of people’s world be just a little bit cooler.
Thats cool, somebody else recognized, and thought enough of what I did to put me in there on a short article they wrote about the history of WeFunk.
Thanks, whoever that was..
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April 28th, 2007 Haxwell
I read this on somebody’s blog.. she’ll know who she is when she reads it..
Have you ever wondered why people say in the same breath that folks are a product of their enviornment and in control of their destiny?
That is true! Everybody does say that! And now that I’m thinking about it, have you ever thought about how absolutely fucking cool it is that everybody says that?! Does it not just give you hope?! That statement says to me that everybody knows something. That confirms to me something I’ve always believed.
I mean, really look at that statement, and what its saying. If you think of say, Paris Hilton, Drew Barrymore, or any other product of a rich family of white folks, you can see that they can pretty much do whatever they want to do. If they want to own a company, they can. If they want to put out an album, they do. If they want to save a black kid, they do it. They are able to do that because they are products of their environment and in control of their destiny.
But then you take people like Dr. Ben Johnson (I read his book when I was little. Thanks Mom! ) who came from a Black single parent home in Detroit, in the 50s and 60s. He’s a world renowned neurosurgeon. Or Oprah! or Malcolm X, or a million other people who came from nothing to be miles and miles from where anybody thought they would ever be. Everybody says of them that the people they became were as a result of their environment. They had strong family, other influential people, etc. As well, one would have to agree that the successes they attained were because they took drastic control of their destiny. They so easily could have gone the other way.
Now that leaves everybody else who’s name you don’t know. The folks who don’t reach their potential. The ones who die to young for a myriad reasons. The ones who linger on for years more than even they thought they ever would. The homeless on the street. The guy who owns 10 biggest supermarkets in the city. Just the regular people who make the world go ’round. They are wherever they are because of their environment. For right or wrong, their environment affected their decisions, and their decisions lead them to what ever path they are on (or ended at) as well. In other words, they are products of their environment, in control of their environment, and in control of their own destiny.
We all have the ability to make the decisions to most positively effect our environment. And the more we all do as an entire world of literally powerful beings, the better all of our environments become. We are already in control of our own destiny. Where do we decide to go? Its not in our nature to choose to live at the expense of others, to live at the pain or discomfort of another. That happens in our world because we have been taught that we all can’t have. We’ve been taught scarcity. If you simply could have and not feel that you were infringed upon by anyone else who was also able to make that decision, why wouldn’t you? That simple, and extremely Libertarian statement describes what we are really all talking about in this world. Or rather, it describes its opposite. In this world, we can’t simply have without somebody feeling infringed upon because if somebody simply can have in this world, somebody else isn’t gettin’ paid. And if you’re smart, you ain’t about not gettin’ paid. So if you have to sue someone, lie about someone else, start a war here, kill another country’s leader over there, you do it. I mean YOU may not do it, but when it comes down to it, thats why THEY do it. Because if they don’t, somebody ain’t gettin paid. And they can’t have that.
To understand where I’m going with that, you have you know and agree with me on one thing. You agree, right?, that every generation is more liberal than the one before. Every generation allows a little more than their parents would have allowed. A lot more than their grandparents, and their great grandparents, shit. They wouldn’t recognize these people! Think the devil done got up in ‘em, or somethin. So if you agree with me there, then you have to see that every generation is growing, making a decision to be different, to allow more than their parents. As easily as they could have made another choice, people make the ones they make, and those people are the reason for the world we live in. And not the one that our great grandparents lived in. For better or worse, I think we live in a much better world. A much more liberal world.
We all have the power to choose. I choose to believe that the world will come to see that living in the happiness, the abundance, the choice of another is of greater benefit to us all, than attempting to keep the other without. That everybody says that they are a product of their environment, and that everybody says you are in control of your own destiny, says to me that everybody in every environment has the choice to make their destiny living off of someone else’s happiness, someone else’s abundance, somebody else’s choice. People just have to choose. Choose. One day everybody (or enough somebodys) will notice that, and they will choose. The world will be a better place on that day.
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April 2nd, 2007 Haxwell
A quick one.. Today’s coolness is yelp.com. I found it while searching for some place here in LA.. but its a like a myspace for all the places you go to in your life.. I mean they have grocery stores, dentists, car repair places, and of course all the cool stuff like clubs and bars and shit like that. I have already put like 4 reviews on there.. This is my new favorite site of the moment!
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March 7th, 2007 Haxwell
Its funny when you look back and see where you’ve been.. How the view from way up there can make where you currently are seem so different..
I just stopped by deephousepage.com today, and I saw Kai Alce listed as the newest entry in their Presents section.. Before that I stopped at virgolounge.com, and the owner there still has me listed as a featured DJ.. I haven’t even attempted a mix in months.. I don’t know if you know Calvin Morgan, but he does SWEAT there in Atlanta.. He is listed too, but I’m sure he only found out about that through me, and if not through me, definitely after me.. But anyway, what made me write is on Kai’s mix, he has Brodie performing Little Ghetto Boy by Donny Hathaway as his opening track.. It sounds like he may be at Apache Cafe.. There are all these people that are doing big things in their own scene and just in my little time in Atlanta, I came to be on a first name basis with a lot of them.. just by being me, just by doing my thing.. by putting intoodeep together and doing what it was, the little that I did.. From the outside looking in, one would think that I was the shit.. I mean I can honestly say, I know Kai, I know Brodie, I know Calvin, all of them personally, not just names I saw on a flyer or saw perform somewhere.. This morning I was feeling down a bit, a little overwhelmed by all that I have to do, by all there is to be done to reach my goals, and especially all the troubles in my life that I have.. relatively minor things, but car needs major work, bills need to be paid, I’m tired of being alone, need to go to the dentist, and the doctor, got maaaad things to learn for work.. none of them life threatening things, and in comparison to others in the world, I’m doing pretty well, but still for me, it got me down. But seeing those names, Kai, Brodie, Calvin.. reminded me of something my mom used to say, something I know is true.. That “in order to succeed you only have to do a little bit more than the other folks is doin.. and they ain’t really doin’ that much.” Not to take anything away from any of them because they are all great at what they do.. but the point is from nothing when I started in Atlanta, through just doin’ what I do, I brought them into my life, I got to know them. Not like we’re best buddies, but still I did that. Its a small thing, but it confirms, day by day, keep moving, keep stepping forward, the people you need to do what you do, the people you need to succeed, the people who are themselves successes, will come to you.
Earlier when I was talking about Calvin finding out about virgolounge after I did, its not like that is some big deal, or that I’m even tripping over it. On the contrary, its a positive thing for me. I’m glad he found Houseman.. Thats just another confirmation of what I was just saying.. because one day, a couple months ago, Calvin called me while I was at work, and he was talking about some project he was working on, he said to me that a partner of his had mentioned to him, “..and we need to get with those intoodeep people, too!”, saying that it would be good for promotion, etc. And Calvin asked me, “That intoodeep, thats just you isn’t it?” And I said “Yeah..”.. and that was that, but it made me feel good that my efforts had been recognized.. when you put shit out in the universe like that and it comes back to you, you KNOW you made an impact because, as another thing my mom told me, when advertising yourself, of the people it reaches, about 1% will respond. Maybe a bit more than 1%, but the point is nowhere as many as were reached by it. So if what I was doing reached Calvin and his crew enough that they even thought they needed to connect with intoodeep, then damnit, I was on the right track. All those cards I passed out, shows I went to, money I spent in the club.. all was on the right track. and if I hadn’t stopped, it would be even bigger now.
Just keep moving.
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February 28th, 2007 Haxwell
Just a quickie.. I was looking at a bug that I’m going to be working on.. The issue had to do with mail from our system being marked as Spam, and therefore not appearing to users of GMail or Hotmail. This was the most recent comment..
Have you had a chance to look at the MSN documentation yet? Please let me know if it would be more helpful to put you (or someone else) directly in touch with someone on the MSN side.
Also, I have sent our email template to a friend of LT’s over at Google. Hopefully, they can share some insight there as well.
LOL… how cool is that.. How many people can say (of those who would even want to, of course) that someone over at Microsoft or Google would even pay attention to what they had to say.. I mean we have a problem, and we have enough clout that they care about it.. how cool is that..
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February 11th, 2007 Haxwell
I just got through watching this show on PBS about Martin Luther King, Jr called Citizen King. It was so much more than other documentaries I’ve seen on him. It is so much more than just the same speeches he has given, I Have A Dream, etc., that have been driven in to clichèdom by this short attention span culture that we live in. They showed march after march that he did, showed speeches and candid footage of things that I honestly have never heard him say. It was extremely powerful. That man did all that he did, marched, preached, traveled, spoke with Presidents and peasants, dodged bullets, nursed wounds, steadfastly justified his actions, stood strong in the face of hate, became vilified for simply wanting peace, he did all of that including and ultimately dying for me. For every other young Black person. For all humans. He knew in life what his purpose was, and though it was not for his benefit, and with the talent he had he could have done so much more financially, physically, spiritually, if only he had taken his energy and been selfish with it. But that would not have been in line with his purpose, not in line with his highest cause.
His purpose, what he lived and died for, as he said in his last speech, it what allows me now to pursue mine. I am not glossing over or neglecting that fact that many others died as well. Their deaths only lend weight to the reality of the situation that I would not be here in the place that I am, able to work toward my purpose in the way that I am, if they had not done what they had done. There are many, many, many people, many souls, many lives that have come before me and set the path that I am attempting to find, let alone walk. I honor them all. I thank them all. For without them, I would not be me. Without them, I could not become who I am meant to be. The tragedies that befell them, the successes they attained, all of what they did, they did for a reason. In relation to me, those things happened for me. They happened to allow me.
I am honestly humbled by that.
I pray that I never forget that fact. I pray that it continue to motivate me, that it serves to keep me grounded and focused.
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February 6th, 2007 Haxwell
I realized recently, within the last couple days, what it is exactly that is happening to me. In short, I am finding God. More than that, however, I am finding my purpose, my reason for being here. All the positive things that have been happening to me are a result of a change in awareness, a change in my thinking. These things have come to me as signs that I am on the right path.
In fact, before I moved to Atlanta, I went back to Denver for some reason. I mean, I forgot what the reason was exactly.. Actually, I remember.. without putting too much unnecessarily on the web, I had some family issues to take care of. Some folks was trippin’ and I was HEATED about it.. turns out that was for the best, anyway. But what I was saying was that while I was there in Denver, I met with a family friend. She is a friend of my mother’s from college days, if not before. But anyway, we had a very interesting conversation. She asked me what did I want to do with my life, or something to that effect. I told her “I want to find Truth”. I didn’t know how I was going to do it, or if it was even possible. I had no idea what questions to ask, nothing. Only that I knew what I needed in my life was Truth.
I had the pleasure of calling her this weekend and telling her of my recent events. I told her that I remembered that conversation, and that I had to share with her my good news. That news being that I was not sure that I had found Truth yet, but that I was definitely on the right path, and that if not here already, it was coming to me. And not just MY truth, but THE Truth.
Even being able to say that, honestly with no reservations, is at the same time an amazingly humbling and terrificly empowering thing.
You may ask what is it that I have learned, what is it that has so dramatically affected my point of view. I would answer that I have found my highest purpose. I would answer simply that I have realized that Joy and Love and Truth are God, and God is Truth and Love and Joy. None of them can exist outside of the other, they are all the same. And that by finding Truth, one finds all the rest. But you have to be open to Truth. Because Truth is not necessarily what you have been taught. It is not necessarily what you believe. And I have known that. For YEARS I have known that, but I never realized, I never saw it for what it was. Now, I see. And therefore, I am open to all else that I never saw before, never understood before, and it has revolutionized my outlook on life.
You will pardon my French, but it is simply fucking amazing.
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January 31st, 2007 Haxwell
I haven’t written anything in here regarding my opportunity with Fox Sports because I think that since they contacted me, even though things kept happening to indicate that this was a blessing for me, that this was the path that I needed to go on, through the whole process there has been a little part of me that hasn’t believed that its really happening. But last night I signed the offer letter and sent it back to them. That offer letter is as real as it gets. Its such a dream coming true, that it doesn’t even feel real yet. But to sign that letter after four interviews, two reference checks, a background check, one cross country flight and back, numerous emails and calls with Fox employees, signing that letter last night was as real as it gets. I asked for this opportunity, and it came to me. I didn’t go looking for it, it came to me. In fact, besides being selected for the position, let me relate a story to yet again confirm that what you ask for you will receive should you orient yourself to being available to those blessings you asked for.. Monday when I heard from HR at Fox and they described to me the terms of the offer letter, it was a little less than I had asked for. I mean I honestly thought about what I would need, what I would WANT to come do this job, and I told my prospective manager that, and when the offer came through, it was a teeny bit below what I had asked for. I was a bit taken aback because I expected the offer to come just as I had asked for, and nothing less. But there it was. In the end, I decided to humble myself, and accept this as the blessing it was and nothing less. They were obviously wanting me to prove myself in the first year and surely by my next review I would be where I asked to be and even further. So I accepted the offer. The next night when I saw the official written offer, I saw that they had in that short period of time increased my original offer to match what I had asked for. When I thanked my new manager, he told me that they had had a meeting, and brought in the finance people and all of that, and said that “This is a really great guy, we want him on our team, can we make this little extra happen?” and they did. It happened. For me. What I asked for happened. And not because I did anything extra special, all I have done this entire time is believe. And it happened. Again.
The universe constantly gives me signs about what I need to do, and I see them more clearly every day, and following them I understand, I see where my missteps are occurring, and I make changes quickly. The little knowledge that I have gained is amazing in what it has done to affect my reality. Simply amazing. To the point that questions I have, inner debates within myself, the answer to them is presented to me quickly and plainly, and I see. I see that I knew this all this time, and because of others, because of spirits not matching mine, but still intertwined with mine, I disregarded what I knew all this time. I wasn’t trippin. I am not now trippin. I have asked and it has been given. I signed the letter yesterday, do you feel me? This was meant to be. Who knows what will happen tomorrow, nobody knows, nobody can truly say, but what we can say is that that lack of knowledge is not enough to keep us from doing in the now what needs to be done. And if we live for ourselves and for our best interest, honestly, truthfully, in the now, tomorrow cannot help but to be great. It simply will be.
This is not to say that I haven’t thought some negative things, and that negative things haven’t happened. But when they did happen, I could see their cause or at least the gravity of them being directly related to my previous thoughts in creating my present reality. It goes both ways.
And so I see great things in 2007. My thoughts dictate it. The signs confirming it continue, and I know as foolish or naive as I may sound to some, I know that every time some thing happens it happens for a reason. And these things keep happening, on a daily basis.. blessings, daily. If I am not right about why, if I am mistaken, bullshittin, or whatever.. then what is the reason?
If you haven’t already heard of the Secret, you should read about it.
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January 2nd, 2007 Haxwell
I noticed there was all this change around my house. Nickels, quarters, dimes, and pennies in piles all over the house. Not to mention the jar and glass I filled with change last time I noticed change all over my house. So I decided to count up all that money, get it changed into bigger bills and put those all over my house. Stop thinking in small change. Anyway, I am about finished, and I am amazed to say that I have over $100 in CHANGE in my house. Just money around me that I didn’t even notice.
Today, my first day working at H&R Block, the office boss told me H&R Block has a program where they can set up at the offices of a nonprofit, and do taxes of their people, and each return kicks back some to the nonprofit. Of course, for each return I do there, I get a percentage. My cousin’s wife is like the Head Muckety Muck over grants at the United Way. I asked her, and she said she’d be glad to help me.
Also, there is this lady there, from Russia. Turns out she will be needing help with her computer, help designing websites and such. She told me she came here with very little English, but that she wanted to do something different she wanted change, so she uprooted her life to come here. Now that she has learned English, five years later, she’s ready to move on. She wants to teach English in European countries for a while. Just a cool person, a like spirit. She told me if I wanted to learn Spanish I should go to SPAIN and quit messing with what I’ve been doing. I told her that I am fairly conversational, in Spanish so, something must be working.
Then this guy I work with, he’s from Cuba. He was happy to have somebody to practice his English with, and I have another person to practice Spanish with. Thes people are both blessings to me. They both will help me get where I want to go: my new goal of making $250,000 / year with no person being able to say they were my employer. Fuck working for somebody when I’m 60. I need to count up like 60 oh’s on all the checks people are sending me when I’m 60..
But yeah, little things.. cada dia..
I’m thinking I could be writing here a lot if I document each thing that happens. I mean there’s already been PLENTY that I haven’t put on here, but if my counting is correct this is the third entry on this topic of blessings.
I guess there are worse things I could be continuously writing about.
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December 30th, 2006 Haxwell
Tonight I went over to a friend of mine’s house.. We’ll call her Alma, because even though I’m sure she wouldn’t mind me using her real name, as I discovered tonight, all that I take for granted in this computer world is not granted to all. So, I’m sure as well, that she has not thought of the implications tied to having your name searchable for all time by ANY other computer in the world. Shit. I don’t think I’ve thought of those implications.
Anyway, I met Alma some months ago in the club.. It was at Imported Underground, and that night I was feeling good. I remember that because I remember the way she danced. She just had el ritmo mas suave, and I could feel her spirit, I knew, and I told her then that she was somebody I needed to have in my life. I could just see that in her. Not that I was trying to get at her, I mean obviously I was, but even if it couldn’t be like that, I just wanted to be in her world. Really. I remember when I was explaining it, that the words just came, there was no doubt, they just came. So of all the guys in there that night hitting on her, I got her number. That wasn’t a coincidence.
So, that was this summer some time because there have been a couple Imported Undergrounds since then. Alma and I have never kicked it before tonight. We’ve seen each other out and talked, and chilled at various spots we’ve both been at, but we’ve never kicked it on a one on one level.
I can’t even document on the web all the cool things that happened today, THAT I KNEW WOULD, things that I asked for, but did not ask HER for.. things I had asked the universe for.. and they came.. for instance I have been wondering, how am I going to make money on my own, and do it on my own terms, so that I am happy, so that I can continue this present state of joy that my mind finds itself in. Yesterday, it was that internet seminar in the mail from who knows how long ago, coming up in like two weeks! Today, it was Alma. After we worked on her computer and got her MySpace page going, and I taught her some stuff about how to make changes next time, etc. (She’s a project, definitely, she is going to take me a minute to bring into the 21st century.) We made some good progress, it took us till like 1:30 in the morning, but we got it. If you know Bates, you know why it took us till 1:30.. if you don’t ask me.. thats another blessing, for real!
So at the end of all that, Alma asked me, so “how much do I owe you?” I was like “Ahh, shit.. uhm..” and I was thinking of saying “No, you don’t owe me anything,” but you know what, fuck it, this could be the universe presenting me with another opportunity, so I told her “Whatever you think is fair… but keep in mind you’ll be setting precedent.” So long story short, she gave me $50. I mean it was $30 cash and a $20 check, but $50 nonetheless.
And you know another thing, I got stopped the other night by this cop.. he told me my brake lights were out and that he was just giving me a warning.. Luckily I was close to home, so I went right home, but the next day I went to PepBoys to get the lights. Getting some help in the store on removing the housing for the lights was taxing at first, but the universe removed the unhelpful enery in front of me, and brought me a manager. A manager who spoke Spanish nonetheless, and he helped me. But I found out they didn’t have the part I would need and it would cost me $160 to get the part. Now I don’t have a job, where the hell am I going to get $160 from?
You know that $107 check from H&R Block yesterday, and this $50, thats $157. Money that came to me after I asked the universe, “I need $160 to get this light fixed.” Not a day later, the money has come into my hands.
You might say thats a hellafied coincidence. And I would say to you that I do not believe in coincidences. I believe if I ask for it, it will come to me.
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December 5th, 2006 Haxwell
Here is what I am listening to now..
http://www.deephousemix.com/mixes/vibecontrol.mp3
Its been a long time since I posted in here.. A lot of people don’t have a blog. I guess I shouldn’t take my soap box so for granted. I mean not like its that big a deal. Not like anybody who wanted one couldn’t get it. Just, I don’t know, you may not want to take the effort to get it. Not like its some great feat of strength or mental prowess either. The point is, I have one, and I guess I should use it. They keep sending me emails telling me I need to put more money in my account, so I guess I should use what I’m paying for.
I saw Carol the other day. Its been 15 years.
Let me say that again, its been 15 years.
She hasn’t changed a bit. Its best we haven’t been in touch all this time
It was good to see her though. Thats my girl, with her crazy, crazy, unexplicable self. Thats my girl.
Have I mentioned lately I LOVE speaking Spanish (the little I know)? ¿tanto chevere es la cultura de latinos? I mean have you watched Telemundo? Have you seen them dance? Listened to them speak? How could you not love these people?!
I need to get back to work.
I will post more too.
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June 16th, 2006 Haxwell
I read a disturbing article in Rolling Stone today. It presents a lot of information, statistics, quotes, and otherwise that indicates that the election of 2004 was most likely fraudulent, and that Bush should not be our President.
Now with all the other evidence, all the other questions, all the other just feelings that something must be wrong here, a quote from that article struck a chord with me:
When you look at the numbers, there is a tremendous amount of data that supports the supposition of election fraud,” concludes Freeman. ”The discrepancies are higher in battleground states, higher where there were Republican governors, higher in states with greater proportions of African-American communities and higher in states where there were the most Election Day complaints. All these are strong indicators of fraud — and yet this supposition has been utterly ignored by the press and, oddly, by the Democratic Party.
Now ask yourself, given that there are only two parties in our country, and they are supposed to have different ideologies, they are supposed to do things in a different manner, and most basic of all they are simply supposed to be different, opposing parties, why would the Democratic Party not want to address these issues?
Think about that question for a minute.
The answer is extraordinarily depressing.
Go do some reading about the financial aspects of our society. Just read a simple book like Rich Dad, Poor Dad. You begin to see that the system is designed to keep rich people rich, and poor people poor. The workers must always be workers. There are aspects of this society, that true enough, we all have access to, theoretically, but we are not all told about. Corporations, tax shelters, investments, and the like. The system is designed to keep the rich rich. I don’t say that to say its unfair (it is, but that’s not my point), I say it to say only that the system is designed to keep rich people rich. It is designed to grow their money. Money automatically grows money. Once you reach a certain point, unless you are ignorant, you can never be poor again. The system is designed that way.
A similar principle applies to politics in this country. There are only two parties. They control everything. They control the elections, they control the debates. They control who you vote for, more importantly they control who you DON’T vote for. When it comes down to it, they control you. What they do affects you. Shit rolls downhill, and you my friend, are at the bottom.
I’ll tell you the reason the Democrats don’t address topics that anybody who was in a competition would bring up had the other side been discovered doing it.
Simply put, there is no other side.
Democrats and Republicans are not in this for the people. The people are only the means that they use to get into office. They give the illusion that they are making efforts to do things for the people, and the people respond by rabidly supporting them as they would even the local losing football team. Both parties are in it for themselves. They are in it for their own existence. Each party recognizes that it needs the other in order to exist. That is why they make such ado about divisive things like gay marriage, immigration, and the like. They need to keep the people divided. Because a united people, a people of like mind will recognize that they (the people) don’t need them (-R’s or -D’s).
Divide and conquer.
Keep them divided, keep them against each other and you win.
So, the Democrats even though they are fully aware that the Republicans are doing some foul shit, do not bring them to task over it because they don’t want to be brought to task over it when its their turn. They don’t address the loopholes in the system, because they need those same loopholes for themselves.
There are plenty of things in this country that we all can agree on, that are obviously beneficial for everybody. Why are those not the issues that they use to bring people to the polls, why are those not the issues they use to fire up their base?
So why would the Democrats not actively and publicly and with enthusiasm support an initiative to make sure that every single vote counts every single time? Why do we vote on Tuesday when more people would be able to make it to the polls more conveniently on Saturday? If it simply must be Tuesday, why not make it a Federal Holiday that everybody gets off of work in order to go vote?
I’ll tell you why. Its too much change. Its too beneficial for the people. They can’t do it and continue to be what they are. Its not about the will of the people. Both parties should support that, but yet, when it is all but patently obvious that something has subverted that will, neither side is alarmed.
Democrats and Republicans both are simply locked in a deadly embrace; except the casualties are the futures and livelihoods of we the people.
They are playing us like fools.
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June 9th, 2006 Haxwell
I don’t know if I have said it on my site yet, but StumbleUpon is the coolest extension for Firefox. It allows you to define some interests, then it groups you with people with similar interests. As you surf, you mark pages that you think are cool, and it shares those with people who have interests like you. I have found so much cool shit with StumbleUpon, I wonder what the hell I was doing before I had it. Kudos to whoever thought of that.
Anyway, like I said, I have found a bunch of cool shit today, but this is cool just for its striking simplicity and utility.
Check it out, and get StumbleUpon! You won’t regret it.
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June 2nd, 2006 Haxwell
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May 24th, 2006 Haxwell
http://www.2theadvocate.com/news/2860711.html
Why this congressman? Why now? There have been plenty of others, with plenty of higher takes.
Why would they break precedent to do it? I mean they have never, ever in the history of the United States, relatively short as it is, raided a sitting congressman’s office like this? Thats pretty big.
If you consider that what Dennis Hastert, Republican Speaker of the House, said in a statement on the raid, specifically that the
“information .. was already under subpoena and [that the raid was conducted] at a time when those subpoenas are still pending and all the documents that have been subpoenaed were being preserved”
the weight of this act is even bigger. They broke hundreds of years of precedent to do this, when all they had to really do was send a television crew over there, and that would have been sufficient notice. They sent the military federal police instead.
And yes, if you consider that the target of this raid, William Jefferson, an eight-term US Representative, was black, that makes the issue even bigger still.. Yeah, I said it.
But now think about who is ‘they’? I mean really think about their histories, who they are, take them as a whole.
With the recent news that the administration is investigating reporters to find out who they talk to, and that they are recording all of citizen phone records to find out who we talk to, and who who we talk to is talking to, and who they are talking to, too, and that there are about 750 laws the President thinks he just doesn’t have to adhere too, because after all he IS the president (isn’t he?); if you consider all of that, which is not much at all.. I think the administration was trying to send a message to Congress, just to let the legislators know what they are capable of, what they can do.
Even if I’m wrong, if its anything close to that, that shit is extremely scary too..
You may think its conspiracy theory, and I would have to agree with you. Some folks have conspired to do exactly what our government is doing. And I don’t have proof, so its only a theory. But damn. If I got all this, and its verifiable and true, somebody else should be scared too.. thats all I’m sayin..
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